fades away

Good Afternoon!

2010-05-27T14:12:00.002+08:00

Good Afternoon everyone! today is a really hotttt day.
feel like switching on the air-con, but must really cherish Earth hor.
nvm, fan will do.

need to finish A LOT of things!!!
1) Jiaqi's present. (hope she does not read this blog!)
2) throw out all the unused stuff, e.g TYS and GP notes.
3) pack my bedroom - too many crap on my bed. leaving me with such minute space to slp in. so uncomfortable!!
4) leave house at 4.30pm.

I GOT A MILKSHAKE JOB. hahaha!! hope it will be fun!! am working with Candice! think it will be great! in preparation for roomie days. hahahah xD
most importantly there won't be any cliques in the place, or else it will be damn sian.

zoo on sunday!! celebrating chengyi's birthday. hahahah!! haven't bought the book for her yet. waiting for SALES. HAHAHA, call me cheapskate, but tt's life! must face the reality of being real broke. stupid bernard hasn't paid me my salary!! >:( need to hang pig head on his door alr. damn nangryz.

ok! am getting bored of blogging alr!! xD such a trivial post. HAHAHA
but who cares! nobody reads anyways. ((((:

time to watch burn notice~ <3

so long,

2010-05-24T17:40:00.002+08:00

wow! the last post was so long ago, like last year!! maybe it's time to reblog? HAHA

not sure if anyone is reading, but who cares, i am jst blogging for fun. just for the fun of forming sentences containing more than 15words (which i mostly fail to do so after ending school due to lack of writing assignments. i mean, who holds conversations with more than 15 words in each sentence?)

anyways, am kind of bored as expected. jobless, school-less, blah. am jst spending time watching loads of tv (and i mean LOADS, i can jst sit infront of the tv and watch any show that is being aired for 5hours straight) and using computer. of course, am eating a lot too. and gaining weight. and getting stupider due to lack of brain usage. who says only boys get stupid due to NS, i think i am getting dumb too.

been trying to read books (i did! borrowed 6 books in early May, but haven't finished reading any...) to gain more knowledge or get back in touch with English. but it isn't as satisfying as watching tv. and am getting more sedentary. i honestly think my walking speed has greatly deteriorated. perhaps my length of legs have greatly decreased as am not walking as much as i used too.

promised pearlyn to jog early morning tmr. but argh, hope i can wake up. HAHAHA. it's at 7.30am!!! D: maybe i will dream tt i am running, which will of course become a nightmare (or daymare).

alright, am getting tired of typing essays. am logging offffff. wake up a-warning-sign.blogspot.

time to revive. maybe i should change the url, sounds kinda stupid.

maybe like

"i-am-sedentary.blogspot"?

nvm, another time.

Happy Father's Day

2009-06-21T22:35:00.000+08:00

happy father's day. (:
been thinking of all the times we spent together.
sry abt the time we quarelled whn we went for dinner.
come to tink of it, it was rather stupid.
love you (:

Hello, again.

2009-06-11T21:03:00.000+08:00

i decided to reblog again. since i basically hve nth to do. actually is alot of things to do, but decided to procrastinate. hahaha.
today is a sad day in all. i lost my beloved handphone. not only tt ok, i lost muy hp pouch, which i painstakingly peeled out all the crapshit hangning on the skin. bloody hell. then i lost of beloved elmo hpstrap which i am proud of it, cause i believe i am the only 1 in the whole sch to own tt kinda childish strap.

the worst of all, i lost my damn hp.
all my photos, all my songs, all my pictures, all my messages, all my ocntacts are gone.
LIKE THAT.

where did i leave it! stupid, of course i dnt knw right. -.- if i knew i wldnt hve lost it. stupid.
i wnt my hp back. i jst terminated my damn sim, so i cant get back my same old sim. my same no. cause my dad is not ard to get it back fr me. DAMN.

pissed of at my own stupidity ONCE again, for losing my phone. great, even photos of me and my dad are gone. GONE.
damn my freakin lousy shit asshole computer which crashed right aft my dad passed on. GREAT. all the photos are officially gone. GONE. asshole.

STUPID!!!!

You make me Mad.

2008-11-25T01:21:00.002+08:00

You make me Mad.
You make me Mad.
You make me Mad.
You make me Mad.
You make me Mad.
You make me Mad.

everything about you makes me mad.
grahhh, it's not fair.
nothing is fair.
why are some ppl born cleverer than others?
why are some ppl born healthier than others?
why are some ppl born more perfect than others?
it's no fair.

you make me mad.
angry.
frustrated.
furious.

who are you to tell me what i should do?
I AM BUSY, DAMN IT. VERY BUSY.
oh i forgot, you are not inside ECON ACTION PLAN.
nor are you in some PHYSICS ELITE FORCES.
and you don't even hve any problems studying.
of course you freaking don't understand.

and comeon,
your whole family is HEALTHY.
i have a sick dad.
a terribly sick dad.
i can't hve everything MY WAY anymore.
so who are you to decide wht i shld do?

and thanks,
for changing it.
thanks alot.
i needed tht to add on to my list of
"things i hate about you."

and wht i hate most about you?
is the fact tt you dn't care.
you dn't see.
you dn't listen.
you dn't bother to understand.

so who are you to tell me wht i shld do?
and who are you tell me of whn i didn't hve the time to do my job?
WHO ARE YOU.
YOU MAKE ME EXTREMELY MADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

GREAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Why Do I Keep Counting - The Killers

2008-09-06T22:00:00.004+08:00

There's a plane and I am flying
There's a mountain waiting for me
Oh these years have been so trying
I don't know if I can use them

Am I strong enough
To be the one?
Will I live to have some children?

Help me get down,
I can make it,
Help me get down
[x2]

If I only knew the answer
I wouldn't be bothering you, father

Help me get down,
I can make it,
Help me get down
[x2]

If I only knew the answer
And If all our days are numbered
Then why do I keep counting.

My sugar sweet is so attainable
This behaviour so unexplainable
The days just slip and slide
Like they always did
The trouble is my head
Won't let me forget

I took one last good look around
So many unusual sounds
I gotta get my feet on the ground

Help me get down,
I can make it (ohhhhh...)

Help me get down,
I can make it,
Help me get down.
[x2]

If I only knew the answer
I wouldn't be bothering you, father

Help me get down
I can make it,
help me get
[x2]

If I only knew the answer
And if all our days are numbered
Would you help me get down?

If I only knew the answer
If I change my way of living
And if I pave my streets with good times
Will the mountain keep on giving

And if all of our days are numbered
Then why do I keep counting.

gray grey grey's

2008-08-17T00:02:00.004+08:00

today was watching grey's anatomy.
think i mentioned bfore,
grey's anatomy does teach ppl of 人生道理

today i watched i think 3 episodes?
there was one on competition, and here's a quote.

"Just because you've lost in a lions' competition, doesn't mean you can't roar."

how true,
most people dwell on the fact that they've lost,
and are incapable, and even give up.
but they forget the fact that they are actually good enough to be competing,
that they are actually a fighter.

and another quote to rmber.
"It's good to be afraid. It means that you have something to lose."
cool huh.
but i don't really understand.
LOL :D

how i love grey's
gray, grey, grey's : DDDD

What if?

2008-08-12T20:03:00.002+08:00

what if i say i miss you?
wht wld you do?
wht reaction will i get?
"oh, me too. (:"
so brief, so distant.
so automatic.

sighs, whtever manzzzzzz.
hope you read this post,
and hope you knw it's you.

oh i forgot, do you even rmber my blog?

whtever manzzzzzzz.

(: - smile, and everything will be alright.
bullshit.

Romeo &Juliet - The Killers

2008-07-26T00:31:00.003+08:00

A lovestruck Romeo, sings the streets a serenade
Laying everybody low with a love song that he made
Finds a streetlight, steps out of the shade
Says something like, "You and me, babe, how about it?"

Juliet says, "Hey, it's Romeo, you nearly gave me a heart attack."
He's underneath the window, she's singing "Hey la, my boyfriend's back.
You shouldn't come around here, singing up people like that.
Anyway, what you gonna do about it?"

Juliet, the dice was loaded from the start
And I bet, and you exploded in my heart
And I forget, I forget
The movie song.
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

Come up on different streets, they both were streets of shame
Both dirty, both mean, yes and the dream was just the same
And I dream your dream for you and now your dream is real
How can you look at me, as if I was just another one of your deals?

Well, you can fall for chains of silver, you can fall for chains of gold
You can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold
You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin, yeah
Now you just say, "Oh Romeo, yeah, you know I used to have a scene with him"

Juliet, when we made love, you used to cry
I said, "I love you like the stars above, I love you till I die"
And there's a place for us, you know the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

I can't do the talk, like the talk on the TV
And I can't do a love song, like the way it's meant to be
I can't do everything, but I'd do anything for you
I can't do anything except be in love with you

And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be
All I do is keep the beat, and the bad company
And all I do is kiss you, through the bars of Orion
Juliet, I'd do the stars with you any time

Juliet, when we made love, you used to cry
I said, "I love you like the stars above, I'll love you till I die"
There's a place for us, you know the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

A lovestruck Romeo, he sings the streets of serenade
Laying everybody low with a love song that he made
Finds a convenient streetlight, steps out of the shade
He says something like, "You and me, babe, how about it?"

Fill that little hole, will you?

2008-07-17T02:04:00.002+08:00

i don't knw wht to say to you ):
seems like the distance btwn us is like, ever widening.

you say sorry fr not being able to be a friend to me.
but why, i can't seem to find the sincerity in those words.
i don't see the effort in trying to meet me.
i know, you have many friends, and only a few days in S'pore.
but if you really really treat me as someone impt,
you wld meet up with me, won't you?

we agreed to meet last december.
but you cancelled the apt last minute, saying you had something on.
but i saw you at orchard, with a bunch of pple.
wht wld you think/feel if you were me?

we didn't talk on msn fr ages.
i initiated convos, but they don't seem to last longer than 5 sentences.
i can't recall whn you initiated.

this time, you told me you were coming back to sch to visit us.
you told me to be prepared to meet you.
but i didn't see you on monday, you weren't ard.
and whn i asked you, you told me you left earlier.
and another sorry.

sometimes i wonder,
hve you forgotten me?
maybe not, but you hve a thousand more friends having the same status as me.
"a friend",
having some weight, but not so much as to pay extra attention to.
not so much as to try your best to keep the friendship.

i am tired,
i don't want to feel my heart lifted with the empty promises of meeting me,
but feel it drop again by you "accidentally" cancelling it.
i don't want to hear another sorry from you.

jst like wht tricia said,
if you really treasure this friendship,
busy is not a excuse.
friendship is precious and priceless,
once it's gone, it's gone forever.

Fix You - Coldplay

2008-07-09T00:42:00.003+08:00

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what your worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I,

Tears stream, down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I,

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

Are you my person?

2008-07-09T00:26:00.003+08:00

"i care for you."
"take care, smile! i'll be there for you."
"everything will be alright."

it's true,
the same words from different pple can produce different effects on someone.

perhaps i'm jst not the person you wish to hear those words from.
perhaps, you dn't miss the person,
but you miss wht the person did for you,
and will still do for you if everything was the same.

i miss my person too,
but it's so long ago.
and you are the person i wish to hear those words from.
but gone are the days.

Books Ahoy!

2008-07-07T15:45:00.002+08:00

i am a bookworm!
i love books
i love books more than i love food.
more than i love jared padalecki : D

and here is the list of books i shall finish reading by this mnth!
1) Blood Eagle
2)Tuesdays with Morrie
3)For One More Day

and here is the list of books i shall get by this mnth! :D
1)The Five People You Meet in Heaven
2)The Curious Incidend of the Dog in the Night-time
3)A Spot of Bother
4)A Short History of Tractors in Ukrainian

oh man, Books Galore :D
i love reading <3
boooooooooks <33333333

but i hate studying ):

The Changeling

2008-07-04T00:18:00.002+08:00

alright people.
i hve had ENOUGH.
and yes, my tolerance lvl is at its max.
shut up and piss off.
get off my back.

wht the hell is wrong with being short?
you think i want it?
you think i love it?
so wht if you are taller than me?
you are UGLIER than me.
bitch.

and i am tired.
I SWEAR
THE NXT PERSON WHO LAUGHS AT MY HEIGHT OR CALLS ME STUMPY.
I SWEAR I WILL VOODOO YOU WITH PINS AND NEEDLE AND BURN YOU ALIVE.

oh, and i may switch to lifejournal
and only my friends can read them.
be prepared to get invitations :D

Oh Santa-

2008-06-20T17:46:00.003+08:00

HOLIDAYS ARE ENDING.
NOOOO, i want more holidays.
oh santa ):

anyways, i' ve deleted some posts :D
am glad i gt rid of them,
they are like veryveryvery disgustingly depressing.
hahaha :D

am in a great mood now :D
i've finished my foxy lady though ):
and sch's starting.
damnnnnn.

i hate sch ):
i want to go out. ):
i want to meet up with tt idiot pearlyn.
sighs, i hve no friends. ):
imma lonerrrrr.
and i'll shrivel up and die.

haha, whtever :D
alright, time to chiong GP.
damn, ):

My huckleberry friend,

2008-06-11T01:49:00.002+08:00

Moon River, wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,
wherever you're going I'm going your way.

Two drifters off to see the world.
There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end--
waiting 'round the bend,
my huckleberry friend,
Moon River and me.

I heard this frm some chinese serial drama,
when someone takes the first step, you should also take your first step.
if not, you will never be in sync with that person.

i've taken my first step,
but maybe to you, it's not even one.

oh, whtever-

Happy Birthday!

2008-06-09T16:06:00.003+08:00

hello hello! yesterday was my birthday! (birdday)

haha, but bfore i talk abt yesterday, i shall talk at 7th June 2008.

it was a lame day. HEH.

i shall skip to the night part. when i was talking to my BELOVED GAY PARTNER.

AZM EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. LOL!

(hope you read this and feel honoured)

haha, we were chatting as usual. and he was speaking AZMI.

fyi, if you hve whtever negative comments you want to make, replace it with AZMI.

e.g: PORN = AZMI.

haha, so he was being himself. and we were talking abt i dn't know wht.

and here is the funny part. we were talking about him becoming whiter and me becoming blacker.

问我 - in deep shit. says:
omg
问我 - in deep shit. says:
there's no mirror here...
问我 - in deep shit. says:
im like
问我 - in deep shit. says:
growin really thick moustache
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
LOL
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
EWWWWWW
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
CUT IT LA
问我 - in deep shit. says:
my sideburn are like
问我 - in deep shit. says:
so damn long!
问我 - in deep shit. says:
LOL
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
you are gna be like the EVAN ALMIGHTY
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
LOL
问我 - in deep shit. says:
LOL
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
except you are
问我 - in deep shit. says:
but im AZMI ALMITY
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
AZMI ALDIRTY
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
LOL
问我 - in deep shit. says:
LOL

so he is now known as AZMI ALDIRTY.

ahahha, and yes, nxt time i will share secrets with you la.

THNKS TO YOUR POOR MEMORY. LOL.

then finally, at time 11.58pm.

i recieved my first sms of HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

congratulations! it was KIMMMMMM.

hahaha, thnks kimm, lovely sms. :DDDDDDDD

then followed by the rest, my dearest peli, with his funny sms.

jocelyn 940, ruiyang, LOL AND LEONARD. HE LOST THE SMS-AT-12 COMPETITION.

and yes, Mr Aldirty. LOL!

then my dearest darlie called me!

thnks darling, you are the first one to sing happy birthday to me!

online, i rcved cakes! and yes, chengyi's trad cake:

kimm's scary ninja cake:

haha, thnks to everyone who wished me happy birthday.

though the no. of ppl was mch less than last yr's

but strangely i don't really care.

wht matters is who are the ppl who wished me.

hahaha, I LOVE YALL!

and i had splendid 8th June 2008.

went to orchard to meet kimm to get my cake.

HAHA, and she stole the Bakerzin menu! LOL!

and yes, i got lost in orchard. not surprising.

it was fun! i saw a, awesome red dress in paragon.

haha, and the price is even more awesome. lol

hahaha, fun day. fun night. caught PUSHING DAISIES : D

NICE TV SERIES, AM GNA CATCH IT EVERY SUNDAY 10.30PM!

haha, and to june.

THNKS FR TT NIGHT! fr sacrificing your intelligence to cheer me up.

haha, and yeah, tt liar can go to hell. HEH :D

darlie! LOVE YOU ALOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

yeah, i fell in love with your smile! : D

alicia : D take care in china. AND RMBER MY URL. LOL!

Drops of Jupiter (:

2008-06-04T15:11:00.005+08:00

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's a time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey.

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that Heaven is overrated
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's a room to grow, hey, hey

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance, five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . .
And me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that Heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there.

&Juliet (:

2008-05-29T22:58:00.006+08:00

am back from camp!
a camp that i will remember forever.
it was splendid, though tiring.
haha, am still in the camp mood!

i will miss so many things there.
the stars,
the sky,
the river,
the mad singing,
the mad morale boosting,
the mad laughing,
the mad truths and dares,
the mad laughing at people,
the mad bus that breaks down every now and then,
the crazed rush for supermarkets and petrol kiosks,
the little attap house that i stood in during the minute of self reflection,
the sit-on-tops,
the little sponge-bob strap on the kayak,
the linking of "you and me" and "blower's daughter",
Jiajin's fear of grasshoppers,
the screams fr FENG YOU
the waterfall
the crazy phototakings.

it's jst a madmadmad camp,
with crazy people doing crazy things.
there are so many things i want to say,
but by typing it out is unable to relate everything.
i will remember it forever. (:

thnks to everyone who made this camp a success.
THNKS TO MY DARLIE, FR SHE HELPED ME MILLIONS OF TIMES!
trekking, contacts, bathing, taking food, gossipping, insect repllent, blahblah.
THNKS MY DARLING. (:

PAKA RIVER CAMP; EXPEDITION08™.

And on your list of things to do,
Is make me fall in love with you.
I Miss You.

I see Sam's Town

2008-05-12T01:00:00.003+08:00

You know I see London, I see Sam's Town
Holds my hand and lets my hair down
Rolls that world right off my shoulder
I see London, I see Sam's Town now

well, everyone is mugging for CTs now.
no one has the time to care about one another.
i guess it applies to me too.
am gna retreat into my mugmode.
yeah, i see MugTown too. -.-

so many things happened recently.
stepping down of yr6s,
ppl getting out of roles tt they shld keep,
ppl unable to get wht they want,
CTs driving everyone nuts.
can't say it doesn't affect me.
Politik.

maybe someday i can really see Sam's Town.
get out of the MUGGING-NON-STOP cycle.
hve a little break,
catch up with friends.

lol, i feel old.
i am only 16!

oh ya, spent 115.17 on 3 dresses yesterday.
heh, jiayou fr mugging!

so what?

2008-03-22T01:34:00.002+08:00

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

I HATE THIS.
i dn't understand a single shit,
i can't do a single crap.
the more i stare at it,
the more frustrated i become.

wht the fuck hve i been doing fr the past 4 yrs?
i hate hw.
i hate projs.
i hate studying.
gosh, i hate myself.

& if you are gng to say,
"it's your own fault tt you are suffering now."
kindly shut up.
because most probably i will kill you personally.
i am sick and tired of listening to you telling me tt it's my own fault.
studies/relationship/not listening to you/
whtever.
shut up.

stop and stare-

2008-01-25T00:25:00.000+08:00

seems like everything is changing,
but i am still stuck at the same spot.
unsure and unaware.

i think i'm a fool.
a fool at almost everything.
its jst jan 2008,
and i feel so tired already.
studies, relationships, family, problems.
neverending.

maybe i jst wanna hide somewhre,
get away frm all the craziness.
chill and find back my momentum,
before striving out once more.

it's a wonder, this heart of mine has been beating fr almost 17yrs,
whn will it stop?

i think i'm moving but i go nowhere.

2008, will it be like 2007?

2008-01-05T13:41:00.000+08:00

its 2008 already.
still kinda not used to saying it.
i miss 2oo7.
):

i wonder if 5C31 will be like 4C.
will it be as fun as 4c?
i miss 4c, esp. the girls.
all the hanging out, all the laughing
fighting, screaming,
dancing like no body's business.
can we do tt in 5c31?

i was reading ppls' blogs talking abt 2007.
it seems to me 2007 had been a wonderful yr fr most ppl.
me too.
but everything mst come to an end.
i miss you, 2007 ):

for wht it's worth,
it was worth all the while.

bye beloved 2007(:

2007-12-31T23:34:00.000+08:00

there is 24 more mins to 12am -- 2008.
2007 has been a wonderful year to me.
a mch more bonded 4c,
a stronger batch of girlguides38thbatch.
a terrific group of 4c girls.
a dirty but heartwarming classroom.
a funny form tcher

so many fond memories of 2007,
and now it's time to bid goodbye to it.
gosh, i miss all those times.

anyways, before the year ends,
am gna thank a bunch of people who helped me tremendously throughout this year.

MY BEST BUTT -PEARLYN NEO!
thnks for being my listening ear, even though you have no idea who i am complaining about. HAHA. thnks fr encouraging me whnever i hve problems, reassuring me and telling me tht i am great and stuff. which is true huh. HAHA! anyways, you are a wonderful friend. and i believe our 10yr friendship will get stronger in the times to come! and yes, you will be my ban4 niang2 whn i get married. : D
i really hope that you will have a wonderful 2008, dn't fret! you are wonderful as you are now, dn't worry too mch about others disliking you! cause you can't always please everyone, jst be yourself dear! loveyouloadsss.

MY DARLIE -- JIAQI!
LAOGONG!! omg, i dn't knw how to thank you. thnks for all the little notes you stuff into my hand, and those cute little gay kisses and hugs. i knw you heard this manymanymanymany times, but i shall say it again, you really brighten up my day! : D i knw you may not be always there for me, but i knw you tried so hard each time. i am touched by your effort. and yes, we have fallen in love with each other's smiles (to hell with leonard). and that message will always mean so mch to me.
thnks for being there for me always, and i will love tt 4c entrance area where will be sit there and talk. and our comfortable silence and your help in everything i have trouble in. esp roller blading. i really hope tt we can stay soooo close nxt yr, and i am sad tt we are in different class, but that shldn't be mch of a problem eh? : D CARROTCARROT! : D

MCTURKEY -- KIMMM!
HAHAHA, my grey's anatomy partner and my fighting partner. lol, its been GREAT sitting beside you. my bird, you rock! : D you and your silly actions, nipple fetish, violent pokes and punches, it's a wonder how i managed to survive. HAHA, i love your house, and yes, not your drain and fish, though the toad was cute. : D
thnks for everything you did for me (and everything you did to me). although you are very quiet, but yes, i love talking to you on the phone, cause you give valuable advices. and yes, i tell you alot of things! : D
you have been great, telling me silly funny things you did and cheering me up. and thanks for all the encouragement you have given me throughout the 2yrs, and i look forward to be with you in the same class for the next 2 yrs! love you, my roasterturkii!

okaye, 2 more mins to 2008. i shall thank these few ppl firstttt, then in 2008, i shall continue.
LOVE YALLLLLLL : D

dancing queen! : D

2007-11-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

HEY PEOPLE! I AM HAPPY NOW!
my birdbrain friend is back,
my friend is ok,
my jared is wonderful,
my heroes is lovely ,
my grey's is splendid,
i had loads of homemade choco pie jst now,
i am clean,
i am spamming my music,
i have a new hp!
and i am happy (:

i was researching on my ever-researching project,
the PADALECKI PROJECT.
jst joking, nahh, i was jst plain indulging in my jaredlove(:
he's wonderful, plain spectecular and sexy. haha! : D

anyways, came across this hilarious website,
http://mskatej.livejournal.com/110562.html
read it, but dn't get offended by the vulgarities, then you will understand why my title is dancing queen. haha!
jared is my love(:
always my love. LOL, ok, tt sounds creepy.

oh, and in case you were wondering abt my diet.
i think i gave it up, i mean
i have 3/4 plate of choco pie.
and its not the small minute kind,
its the HUGE plate.
well, wht can i say?
chocolate heals my soul~

and yes, i love jared.
my padalecki(:
and yes, i need a job urgently.
i am using up my savings,
and i am too free.
I NEED A JOB!!

"See that girl, watch that scene, diggin the dancing queen."

messing up is what makes a person.
only through messing up,
can we learn.

2007-11-24T01:07:00.000+08:00

breath in, breathe out.
i wish tt were a solution to every problem.

i'm sry. i didn't mean too.
i didn't knw it was gna affect me, honestly.
but it did, cause whtever you said, it's kinda my problem too.
it affects me, as i felt tt i was part of it.
but i jst wish tt you cld move on.
to me, it jst aint worth it.
it makes you miserable,
makes you unhappy,
and it doesn't affect her?
sry for whtever harsh words i said,
and stop placing the blame on yourself.
it's not your fault.
and it's tht person's loss.
so get the hell out of my face.
i could learn to play the game,
i could learn to run the hustle,
if i only had the brains,
the money or the muscle.

don't look back in anger

2007-11-19T23:31:00.000+08:00

hey all (: am back after a long time of absence. am determined to slim down!
: D for the sake of my future uniform. haha.

anyways, was indulging myself with lotsa shows this few days. heroes, grey's anatomy, supernatural. oh gosh *SAVE THE CHEERLEADER, SAVE THE WORLD*

was talking to my friend abt missing my another friend, who is currently enjoying her snowy time in turkey. boo, i miss her, my late-caller-cum-gossiper birdbrain. (literally BIRD brain.)
i miss you ):

guess i'll be careful ard you (another person), be nice and all. superficial even? gosh, i dn't wanna go through that again. esp. when i get to listen to wht you say. all tt tiny details, it hurts. but the good thing is tt, you dn't even knw i am talking abt you, you may not even read my blog. (:
i jst wanna put all those bhind me, for all i knw, we won't come into contact with one another nxt yr.
dn't look back in anger. i dn't, jst feeling stupid and foolish. why wld i even-
but nonetheless, thnks fr all you've done.

okaye, am emo cause am PMS-ing. haha (:
i need choco cake. and lots of heroes.
everytime i see the photo, it hurts.
don't chase me anymore,
unless you're ready to catch me.

2007-11-02T22:21:00.000+08:00

today's another last day for another thing.
with leaving guides still fresh in my memory,
i have to bid goodbye to another thing that's dear to me.

i'll miss 4c for sure.
although we are muggers, we are not exactly muggers.

i miss the classroom and the postcards and magazines stuck on the walls.
i miss throwing my stuff in btwn natalie's and my seat.
i miss trying to fight for space to put my bag with kimm.
i miss sitting at my seat, admiring me "JARED PADALECKI" scribbled on the table.
i miss shouting loudly in class jst to get myself heard.
i miss fighting with kimm.
i miss gaying and laughing with nat.
i miss mocking and scolding john.
i miss putting up my legs on ivan's seat.
i miss laughing at practically everything, and with everyone laughing back at me -.-
i miss laughing at ziren being black and everything.
i miss listening to 940 and yuki shout and scream.
i miss laughing at tina when she said "i am so disgusting!"
i miss turning around and talk to jiaying and stella.
i miss lying on top of my table, and try to sleep.
i miss putting my waterbottle beside my seat and to find that it gets kicked down everytime.
i miss sitting outside the classroom with my darlie.
i miss going to parade square every morning, being the earliest class.
i miss sitting in the hall in our index no.s and gossiping ever so loudly.
i miss going down to recess with the whole bunch of girls.
i miss the birds.
i miss the gang of girls.
i miss the 4 ultra childish guys.

4c, the best class i've ever had.
too bad we bonded so late.
but it's the process that matters.
leaving sucks.
especially when you know everything will change,
and it will never be the same again.
it's just goodnight, and not goodbye.

-4SEE the FUTURE

2007-10-21T23:46:00.001+08:00

star light,
star bright,
first star i see tonight.
wish i may,
wish i might,
have the wish
i wish tonight.

finally, it's over.
am gna miss some of it.
but think i will be glad.

and i'll miss childhood.

2007-10-02T19:01:00.001+08:00

alright, i have a confession to make.
I LOVE JARED PADALECKI!! : D

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haha, anyways, fr those who haven't given me any bday present. give you all discount.
jst get a book and paste ALL JARED'S PHOTOS inside can le(:
and his biography and signature.
i will kiss you frm head to toes. HAHAHA : D

ilovejared(:

what could you possibly say to make tt okay?

2007-10-01T16:08:00.000+08:00

today is a nice day,
we've been dealing with FRUIT FRIES (as how the tchr pronounced) the whole day.
its kinda gross, esp. when you have to stare at the body under a freaking microscope.
and you see EVEYRTHING.
the butt, the bristles the EYES. OMG. THE EYES.
but nonetheless, it's kinda fun, esp. when we get to prepare the food for the flies.
it seemed edible.
Milo powder +mashed banana+vinegar+agar powder.
made all of us hungry esp. when we heat it up in the micrwave.
makes it look like cookie. mmmm~

anyways, I FELL IN LOVE WITH COLDPLAY!
it was my exam song. like while i was mugging for bio,geog and chem.
coldplay was singing in the background,
enveloping me in one wonderful song to another beautiful one.

A RUSH OF BLOOD TO THE HEAD!
tt's the title of the disc.
personally i prefer the other songs, and if you noticed my WMP on msn
it is mostly,
Warning Sign
Green Eyes
Politik

HAHAHA! there is WARNING SIGN lyrics. (:
A warning sign,
I missed the good part then I realized,
I started looking and the bubble burst.
I started looking for excuses.

Come on in,
I've gotta tell you what a state I'm in,
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones,
That I started looking for a warning sign.

When the truth is,
I miss you.
Yeah the truth is,
That I miss you so.

A warning sign,
You came back to haunt me and I realized,
That you were an island and I passed you by,
You were an island to discover.

Come on in,
I've gotta tell you what state I'm in,
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones,
That I started looking for a warning sign.

When the truth is,
I miss you.
Yeah the truth is,
That I miss you so.

And I'm tired,
I should not have let you go.

So I crawl back into your open arms.
Yes, I crawl back into your open arms.
And I crawl back into your open arms.
Yes, I crawl back into your open arms...

beautiful huh?
WANT THE SONG?
call this number, hahaha, sry was attempting to be the Mocca lame advert.

*OVER THERE!*
(:

you just aren't worth my time,
my energy,
my thoughts.

2007-09-23T13:51:00.000+08:00

lalalala, am not really in a mood to blog, but bcause of the overwhelming demands.
HERE I AM!!!! (:

lalalala, exams are over baby~
now is the time to slack and play.
a time to really relax and regain my loss of slp during tt 3weeks of mugging.
haha, it's really great when exams are over.
anyways, been doing mainly 3 things after exams

1) INDULGING IN MY SUPERNATURALLLLLL
2) watching all my tv shows - grey's, CSI, blahblah
3) jst using the comp for everything.

life's been great,
cause there is no stress for hw or anything.
although at times on sundays i will be worried
cause there is simply nothing to prepare for sch!
still rmber the times where i have to bring my chem/phy/bio txtbk to my aunts hse to MUG.
haha, but now, NOTHING.
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO WORRY ABT~ : DDDDDD

oh gosh, how i love my SUPERNATURAL.
correction, HOW I LOVE MY JARED PADALECKI.
let me tell you, HE IS ONLY 25 THIS YRRRRRRRRRRRRRR (:
my love (:

okok, let's stop this craze. MY PRIVATE CRAZE.
lemme thank a few ppl who helped me during my exam period.
hahaha, DIANE! : DDDDDDD thnks for you constant encouragements (:
all your "I-KNOW-HOW-IT-FEELS-LIKE" expressions. hahaha!
and kimm, joy, basically everyone who helped me. lalalala
at least i didnt throw my table up into the sky while doing the papers,
and scream hysterically on the spot. *winks*

haha, i like this phrase,
"they don't matter until they do. and when they do, they are all that matters."
isn't tt true?
like we seldom care abt something, thinking tt it has no significance at all.
but when they matter, they are all tt we care abt, all tt we think abt.
we get so upset over it, or get so happy over it.
and so obsessed. :/

ohohoh, after watching supernatural like almost 2 times.
i think i learnt 2 things in overall.
dn't laugh, supernatural does teach ppl something,
besides all the ghostly stuff. hahaha
haha, cant really rmber wht exactly, so shall blog abt it another time. (:

IN OVERALL, I LOVE SUPERNATURALLLLLLLLLLLL.

especially JARED. (:
and diane. ^^

i shan't care anymore,
till then then. (:

2007-08-30T17:58:00.000+08:00

is ok,
i am used to it already.
i don't care ,
and i don't wanna care anymore.
i am tired.
i am so sick of all these hiding little secrets stuff.
if you don't wanna say it,
jst tell it to me.
or if you don't want to,
might as well don't let me knw ANYTHING?
but if you do let me knw something,
and you don't wanna tell me the full story,
pls don't act sry or guilty
it isn't very nice.

i wanna scream and shout and cry at the same time.
and doubt.
;THANKS DIANE! LOVE YOU LOADS : D

2007-08-30T17:11:00.000+08:00

i wish too.
physics sucks
physics sucks
physics sucks
physics sucks
physics sucks
physics sucks
physics sucks
physics sucks
physics sucks
physics sucks
physics sucks
physics sucks
physics sucks
miracles are only fr ppl who need them desperately & those who are prepared.

2007-08-24T17:22:00.001+08:00

hamlet's a killer.
i feel like smacking shakespeare,
and jst like wht my darling diane said,
kill him all over again.
but well, someone said this before,
during an exam, even if you don't knw anything, you HAVE to knw something.
and tt's very true,
for i was crapping throughout my whole essay. LOL!

i guess i am okay now (:
i mean, i don't wanna care anymore.
for if it happened once, it will always happen again and again.
why shld i let myself be so sad over tt?
after all, it's your decision right?
yeah, i am still waiting, but if you don't wish to say it,
it's ok, i don't mind.
but perhaps, i won't tell you anything nxt time.
alright, now is time for MUGGING.
JIAYOU MUGGERS! <3

hold on,
but don't hold too tight;
let go,
&it's gonna be alright.

(from my darling diane<3)

2007-08-22T18:21:00.000+08:00

actions speak louder than words.
i was happy when you said those words,
but why do your actions tell me otherwise?
i think i mention to you once,
it's the small details that count.
i don't think you even knw wht you did.
and how many times you keep doing it.
perhaps you do care about me,
but she means more to you.
i thought i've gotten over it, but seems like i haven't.
and dear,
please take care.
i don't knw wht else to tell you,
i believe it is very painful,
and i knw you are very sad.
but i knw you are strong,
and you'll get over it (:
i love you dear, even if you didnt mention me in your post.
tsk : D

actually, i know about it,
but i am jst waiting for you to tell me yourself.
will you?

2007-07-29T00:32:00.000+08:00

"i'll be there when you need me."
how many ppl have said tt to me?
how many ppl have promised to me?
and yet, how many ppl have actually done tt for me?
do you really mean it when you said it to me?
but why did you take 2 days to reply my sms,
why didn't you call me back when i called so many times.
where did your promise go?

perhaps, "i'll be there when you need me" has its limitations.
"when i am busy, i won't be there. but when i am free, i will be there."
promises are meant to be broken.
it took me long enough to knw tt it was a lie.

i'm tired of all those empty promises.
pls think long and hard before you say anything.

2007-07-12T23:20:00.001+08:00

sometimes i jst wonder,
do you rmber the past?
do you rmber the times we talked to one another?
do you rmber the times we had fun together?
maybe you don't,
but i sure do rmber.
i knw it's impossible to go back to the past,
and jst like wht everyone else says,
those lovely times we had will always be in my memory.
but i will still continue hoping tt we cld return to wht we were : D
and send me the "congrats you survived eoys without screaming" messages.
i feel silly, but wasn't i always playing tt character?
and yes, geminis are full of bullshit (: RIGHT ALICIA?

AND I LOVE YOU DIANE! : D <333

2007-07-09T17:33:00.000+08:00

Photograph - Nickelback

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head

And this is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we'd ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneaking out

And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if it's too late
Should i go back and try to graduate
Life's better now then it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, god, I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated us hangin' out
They say somebody went and burned it down

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since god knows when
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, god, I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it
If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me...

it sucks having regrets whn you are leaving.
why weren't your heart with us?
when will you ever come back to us?
so many questions, yet no answers to them.

2007-07-07T12:47:00.001+08:00

time passes so quickly, now we are sec4 & no longer in dhsgirlguides.
it was such a sad day,
like you knw everything you have worked for for 3 plus years is going to end soon.
and while standing there in your guide uniform,
you knw with each second tt passes,
means you have one less second being a GIRLGUIDE.

yes, yesterday will the last to many things.
the last time we are wearing our beloved blue guides uniform.
the last time we are standing with oour patrols.
the last time we can scold our juniors (no offense).
the last time we cheer so loudly together with the others.
the last time we attend an enrolment and passing down event.
the last time we salute.
the last time we held our posts.
the last time we are officially in DHSCOY.

but wht's scarier is the thought tt
yesterday might be the last to all the friendships and bonds of the guides within our batch.

during our whole guiding years,
we cheered together as one,
we laughed together as one,
we bonded together as one,
we pia together as one,
we share the burden as one,
we sang songs together as one.
if these were to disappear after we pass out, it wld be such a waste.

i will certainly miss those days dearly,
orchid p1, sparrow p3,
ATCs, PLTC,
ketchup, palau, fedex,
2 day 1 night camps,
hikes, OJs, PTs, ye li xing jun,
cheering, singing, shouting,
tuan cheer, tuan ge,
jst alerting and easing,
saluting to our OJ chkpt leader,
bao shu-ing, and shi-ing,

all the hardships, pain, fun, joyful moments we've went through,
will always be etched in our minds.
now fridays will seem very empty to all of us.

DHSGIRLGUIDES38THBATCH <33

ONCE A GUIDE, ALWAYS A GUIDE!

2007-07-06T02:57:00.000+08:00

today willbe the last time.
the last time when we prepare our guide uni.
the last time when we polish our badge.
the last time when we take our belt & linglinglonglong.
the last time when we will rush our last min guides stuff like PLTC days.

the last time when we are DHSGIRLGUIDES38THBATCH.

i'll miss those days.

2007-07-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

maybe if you were there, things would be much easier for me.
but it's too late.
you are gone,
to somewhere i can't be at.
even if we cld talk,
it won't be one on one anymore.
&even if you said you'd be there for me when i need you,
can you?
when i need someone jst by my side,
you won't be the one.
i am not blaming you or anything,
is jst tt, i did'nt treasure the times i had with you.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH.

2007-06-30T22:11:00.000+08:00

today was an ok day,
went out for meeting at KEMBANGAN -.-
how far is tt frm hougang?!
but the meeting was ok, at least it was short.
then went out with joch&chengyi
AND BOTH OF THEM WORE YELLOW.
ON PURPOSE i guess.
jst to outcast the poor yiwei, who was wearing WHITE SCH BASED TEE.
rarh.
it was kinda fun, we laughed and played with one another.
ok tt sounds retarded.
anyways, CHENGYI WORE A MATCHING YELLOW HAIRBAND!
*gasps*
and she carrys a ***** **** wallet!!!! *double gasps*

AND MY BELOVED DIANE IS BACK IN SINGAPORE!
REMEMBER OUR DATE OK?! : D

everyone is selfish in their own ways,
no matter how selfless they seem to be,
there will be things tt they can't bear to part with or give out.
yet we complain tt they are being too selfish,
but being too selfless will get yourself hurt in the end.
ironic huh?
but i guess, we will have to make do with it.

oh yes, & guides meeting sucks.
drained me off my brain juice and muscle strength.
haha (:

someday i'll fade away frm your life.

2007-06-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

just like what she said,
once a fish is caught,
it is caught.
no matter how good the fish is,
it will never be within your reach.
unless the fisherman let it go,
but would you want a second-hand product?

thanks for everything you did (:
HOPE YOU ARE NOT TREATING ME SUPERFICIALLY. HAHA : D

2007-06-17T01:56:00.000+08:00

went to watch oceans13 jst now,
IT IS GREAT!
MUST WATCH OK!
and i simply love matt damon's nose.
HAHA : D

nothing to blog anyways,
except vivo is hell.
where did all those crowd come frm?!
and damn the cinema,
tt queue is ready to scare me off.
and star bucks too -.-

but nonetheless, it was peaceful at 12.15am.
HAHA : D
oh, i need a hair cut.

I’ll still smile in front of my love,
that I’m not able to get.

2007-06-11T17:35:00.000+08:00

now for the 3rd post of the day!
and this is fr my bestbutt!
PEARLYNNNN <3333

anyways, i really loved your presents,
tt golden heart with words scribbled all over it
and tt 4 parts birthday cards.
it was a very pleasant surprise!
SELF DELIVERED PRESENT :D

when i got your present, i was reading tt star
haha, your handwriting is still the same
except smaller by alot. haha
and i thought it was printed on the star!
hahaha : D

wht really overwhelmed me was tt wallet card on friendships,
and when i read it, i was really touched.
because it was sooooo sweet,
and i believe 90% of the stuff stated on it,
you've done them for me : D

OH, and tt silly scratchcard. HAHA
YOU OWE ME MOVIES! : DDD

finally, i mst really say thanks to you
for it was a really special present
and i knw you mst have spent alot of time on it
haha : D

finally, this is for you:
if your sky begins to fall, i'll stay with you till you smile (:

truckloads of love <3

2007-06-11T17:24:00.000+08:00

now for the second post of the day, i shall dedicate this post to

*drumroll*

SUPERTOPHOTPORNSTAR! (i shall not name the person fr PRIVACY ISSUES)

haha, anyways, thanks for your birthday surprise (although you had to redo it like thrice)

and your well wishes. HAHA

and yes, YOU ARE STILL OLDER THAN ME NONETHELESS. HAHA!

anyways, i am really thankful tt we got to knw each other.

well, i still rmber the first setence i told you

"hey, you are ****** frm dhs right?"

HAHA, i thought you were my pri sch friend -.-

but as the days go by, we chatted on msn blah

and yes! you are a GREAT friend.

and you taught me things tt i nvr knew,

fr now i know i was so immature last time.

and you were fun, gay, and you entertain me!

okok, tt was a stupid sentence

BUT IT'S TRUE!

and yes, you are important to me too : D

thank you for wht you did for me,

listening to me and helping me make tt photo. HAHA.

on the last note! TAKE CARE MY DEAR!

study hard, and play hard (although you are playing very hard now)

haha, and yes, DONT GET TOO HORNY!

keep wishing my dear, and believe in miracles : D

if you believe it, it will happen!

MY MIRACLE! : D i am gna print it out and put in my wallet. HAHAHA

2007-06-11T17:01:00.000+08:00

i wanted to blog like 2 days ago, but was too lazy
also didn't want to blog with my WHOLE family behind me,
so had to wait until NOW
all along at home~~~ : D

anyways, I AM 16 ALREADY! *applause*
haha, had a SPLENDID birthday!
pizzas, a choc cake, chicken wings, teochew food,
SUPERNATURAL to top of EVERYTHING : DDDDDDD

okk, shall thank everyone fr wishing me happbday, and not giving me any presents. HAHAHA

thanks to :
DARLIE! - thnks fr your uberdupercute spongebob & his limbs, and let's go out again yea? LE COQ BAGGGG<33333333>
KII! - awww, you're not the first, but one who sent the LONGEST sms. & yes, i am 326 yrs extinct -.-
NACHECHI! - haha, i love you loads too! : D your sms was sooo heartwarming. : D
940 - thnks, but i didn't BURP on my BURPDAY. HAHA : D
YUKI! - haha, I MISS YOU TOO, ZI LIAN KUANG!
DIANE! - woah, your australia sms! HAHA, thnks for tt sms! really brightened up my day, or issit night?
LOUIS! - oh YES, we mst meet up someday ((:
JOY! - ahaha, aren't you proud tt your daughter is FINALLY 16?! : D love you mummy!
CHENGYI! - h-h-h-haha! tt sms was cute, but gay nonetheless. : D
ANGEL! - you lucky girl! bet you are in NZ le. and i am stuck in SG. -.-
IVAN! - haha, yes, i shall BREATHE more air so i can get high! thanks and you owe me SUPERNATURAL DVDS!
LEEYAN! - woah, you actually still rmber my birthday! : D and am still using the same no. (:
JOCELYN! - LAO PENG YOU! thanks alot : D
P3 JUNIORS! - tt was a long sms, and ALL THE SAME for everyone who sent me. LOL, bet is jst forwarded msg rightttt? hahaha
SUMORONG! - oh tt sms was soooooooooo late, but yes, i still got your msg during my bday (1.5hr before 9th june)

and to other ppl as well!
mabel, wendy, jochebed, june, junting, ruiyang, yati, camelia, wenting, lestari, nicholas, gary (oh, i wish jonjon was here), dora, sini, shunjie, mengdie, mr kwek, kenneth mingquan...
thanks for all your well wishes, and yes,
I AM MATURED! (hor, supertophotpornstar?)

and the final 2 posts later on will be dedicated to 2 important ppl (actually one post is forced to dedicate de -.-)

2007-05-26T22:08:00.000+08:00

Damien Rice: The Blower's Daughter

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off you (x5)
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off you (x5)
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off you (x5)
I can't take my mind...

My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

2007-05-16T23:47:00.000+08:00

My Chemical Romance - Disenchanted

Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen,
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen.
I hate the ending myself,
But it started with an alright scene.

It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing.
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting

If I'm so wrong
How can you listen all night long?
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learned a god damned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I can watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean.

If I'm so wrong
How can you listen all night long?
Now will it matter long after I'm gone?
Because you never learned a god damned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to?
And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya, come on
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

At all, at all, at all , at all...

2007-05-15T23:55:00.000+08:00

oh! and something very funny happened yesterday. i was having a convo with chengyi, thinking of wht skill to write for NYAA...

chengyi:
or you do astronomy? sounds so classy neh.
me:
lol! yeah, "i gazed at the fat stars today." -.-
chengyi:
"after 3 weeks, i finally came to a realisation. those that do not blink are not stars."
"tonight my eyes hurt. i think i saw the sun."
"i have made history!!! nobel for me! i have found a living moving creature on the white big round star! wearing some flowy robes -hic-"

HAHA, and our convo went on...

chengyi:
we got to star gaze for 3 wks!
me:
don't need wht, say it rained la! then cannot see.
chengyi:
so smart hor.
then the reflections got 6 right
1st entry: "tonight it rained. i am sad"
2nd entry: "tonight it rained again. no stars."
3rd entry: "tonight it rained. i have no affinity with starts."
4th entry: "it rained again. this is a rainy season."
5th entry: "it rained again! the sky is clouds ridden"
6th entry: "it rained again. this is my last time. i failed to see stars."

then ms tang whack you and can see alot stars.

haha, chengyi, YOU ARE SOOOOOOOO CUTE! XDDDD
i love you~!

2007-04-21T00:29:00.000+08:00

WOAH! it's been sooo long since i've blogged!
haha, so emo for the last few posts. O__o

anyways, i am HAPPY!
why? haha! cause all the mind-boggling tests are OVER!
no more GEOG!
no more CHEM PRACTICAL! xDD
haha. although there are more tests to come nxt wk
but well, tts for nxt week to CHIONG!
now i shall RELAX! :DD

been tiring for the last wk, slping at 1+ to 3+ am each night.
haha, and didnt get to finish any hw, cause of all the damn tests.
which idiot said tt dhs didnt allow 1 wk to have more than 3 tests?!
haha, but well, students' lives are like tt.
NO LIFE.

but, at least am happy now (:
though sometimes may think of things
think of the past, the present.
all the impossible dreams and everything.
but at least, everything is stable!
and am happy (:

once you are happy, the day seems to pass faster (:

ohohoh! was watching supernatural, and then came across this scene where i thought it was HILARIOUS. haha!

sam: "both our families are cursed."
dean: "no, our family's not cursed. we jst have our... dark spots!"
sam: "yeah, our family's dark spots'... pretty dark."
dean: (looking incredulously at sam) ".... you're dark."

hahha, okk, prolly it isnt funny here, but you shld watch it! it was darn funny! HAHA xDD

okk.. am self amusing. forget it...

btw! i am a TV JUNKIE! xDDD

2007-03-30T21:12:00.000+08:00

STRAIGHTJACKET FEELING - the all american rejects.

Yesterday was over
But Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you would be
That face is tearing holes in me

but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when that memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear
grip falls away.

2007-03-03T16:38:00.000+08:00

haha, i simple love these 2 pictures. HAHA!

teehee (:

2006-11-20T18:18:00.000+08:00

GIRLGUIDES38thBATCH! <33

;US! :D

2006-11-11T18:50:00.000+08:00

i miss the dabian & xiaobians.
i miss the snoring symphony.
i miss the bunk.
i miss the beds and blankets.
i miss the malay music.
i miss the supper.
i miss the world class circle.
i miss the fire the guys would start.
i miss packing bags while chatting loudly with the girls.
i miss screaming and yelling about.
i miss gaying with the girls.
i miss the wildboars.
i miss the sentry duty.
i miss the starry nights.
i miss sleeping with all the girls.
i miss laughing like shit at shaheer's face.
i miss niaoing ppl with the girls.
i miss cheering for my watch.
i miss singing KISS GOODBYE.
i miss singing EL NINO.
i miss the first aids.
i miss pulling and strapping the G-strings.
i miss washing the dishes and laying trays.
i miss filling up jugs with syrup water.
i miss the morning trainings.
i miss saying i love you to the girls.
i miss throwing stones like a primary 5.
i miss refilling waterbottles with chlorine filled water.
i miss queueing up and waiting for empty slot to bathe.
i miss the cold water.

i miss hearing all your voices.
i miss all of you.
i miss ENGSOON.

2006-11-10T18:22:00.000+08:00

MONSTER LOBSTER IS BACK!

haha, just went for a 5days 4nights camp, at OUTWARD BOUND SINGAPORE. lol! it was GREAT! lemme have a short summary of all our activities!

1ST DAY!
we got to know that we are in ENGSOON! (those who dunno who is that, kindly search the net for DR TAY ENG SOON, thanks alot). and we have 16 ppl in our watch, with a cool instructor called MAURICETTE! the 16 ppl are:

SI NI
PEIJUN
STEPHANIE
SHAHEER
JOLYN
MERISHAH
DORA
RACHEL
JING WEN
PEK CHENG
ME
ESTHER
JUNYANG
BEN NG
QUANYI

when we started off, it was UBER boring. we had a "get to know on another" session, which is just sitting ard talking. and trying to rmber ppls' faces with the correct name. bahs. cos it was so TIME WASTING and SO BORING, alot of ppl is HOMESICK! (omg) and i can admit tt this was the first time i was kinda hme sick too.
at night we stayed in a bunk, which was flooded with mosquitoes and dunno what la. they are like STARVED. so, we did some charity- donating blood.
but, we slept on.

2ND DAY!
in the morning, we had ROCK CLIMBING! and it was FUN! cos i rmber i last did rock climbing was when i was pri 5. LOL! and we were asked to write our target! i targetted me to climb 6m, but i did 8!
but i stupidly did a second round, when i climbed to the top (applause pls! xD) and when i got down, i felt as if my muscles got pulled out. -____-. and somemore the nxt day we have to kayak the WHOLE day, then no hand strength, then prepare to sink loh.
at night, we went for our expedition, which was sea expedition. we sorta walked to campsite2, which was the old obs structure. we have to cook our OWN DINNER! and it was... edible la. haha, but kinda hard? and we have to wash our masstins and utensils at the sea?! where it is filled with SEAWEED and DIRT. kinda dumb..
then we sleep in BASHAs. which is like, ermm... filmsy and squeezy. cos like 10 girls squeeze one mini basha, damn sian. and ants arh, mosquitoes arh, all sorts of insects enter. merishah had a HARD time killing them la (thanks meishah :D) and i helped my dear dora to flick an ant away! *applause*
but, we slept on.

3RD DAY!
we woke up damn early, and we have breakfast. then we went for kayaking training. blahblah, we actually set off for our expedition at abt 9 plus? and we kayaked for 5 hrs. bahh, under the hot sun! and the cold rain! and we have deepsea capsize drill, which is gross, cos... it just is. it was tiring! and tricia was telling me how we can be MUSCKLE WOMEN when we return back to school. LOL!
then we finally reached campsite 3! is was a deserted piece of land. what you can see is just, sad, rocks, pokey grasses, trees, gravel and NO WATER. (AHHH!><) which means, we have NO TOILET! and NO BATH! haha, we actually peed in the open. gross hurh. si ni says we have all become kampung women, i sorta agreed.
at night, we have to sleep in miserable bashas again, on top of sand and lotsa red ants, but oh well, too tired to complain. haha! we had sentry duty, which was DAMN FUN! i did with sini and merishah; all we had to do was carry a spotlight and stroll around. ahaha, we had to look out for wild boars though. haha! then we did it for 40 min and went back to sleep, while esther, dora and jolyn carried on. sini was telling me abt SPA in this area. what scenery is sea, stars, blah, and what we can serve is milo and dunno what la. kinda funny, and we laughed like shit. haha! it is true tt there were MANY STARS! it was beautiful :D
we slept.

4TH DAY!
we woke at dunno what time, (lost track of time there) and quickly packed up, like removing our bashas and eating breakfast. after tt, we went to a quarry in the area! gosh, the quarry looks CLEAN! it was actually blue! xD
we had to build a raft before we can jump in, as in REALLY jump! it was... nvm ((: lets go to the jumping in part! it was FUN! cos its the first time i did it. and we had a GREAT bath in there. haha! refreshing!
as soon as we got out, we had to carry on with our expedition back to the orignal campsite. we kayaked under the HOTHOTHOT sun for 2 hrs? yeah, and tts where i got sunburntburnt. finally, we REACHED! (rejoice!) then we cleaned up everything and BATHE! ahhh, heaven!
at night, we had the BEST dinner ever, lol! and we laughed like shit. cos of shaheers face! ahhaha! we had solo night walk later on, which was fun abut scary. lol! i nearly got lost whereas jingwen got lost. -___- then we went into a tunnel as a watch to save 3 "casualties", 3 green lightsticks. we managed to save only 2, but its better then NOTHING!
we went back to our bunks and bitched ard, talking abt some educated boar, or issit a WILD one? whatever, haha! and sini agreed to slap him 15 times for our watch! GO SINI!
finally, we fell asleep after singing kiss goodbye in a horrible voice and tune. HA! too bad guys.

5TH DAY!
omg, it was a HORROR. we were suposed to meet at 5.55 at the parade square. but! we woke up at like 5.40?! omg, we are TERRIBLY LATE! we chopchop brush teeth then go there. suprisingly, we were the 3rd watch to arrive! and tt makes us EARLY! (ohmargosh, unbelievable) haha, we had morning pt and stuff, then breakfast. nxt, we had high elements activities! i think it was FUN! and we were under the fat hot sun again. tts when i got sunburntburntburnt.
after tt, we went for LUNCH!lunch wasnt as nice, cos the rice was damn hard. just like the type we cooked. LOL! then we went for shopping. sadly, it was coming to an end already. after buying souveniors, we had to go back to our schools, which meant we are seperated once more. T.T
haii, then we all went seperate ways, and went home.

thought we are seperate, but this piece of memory of 16 ppl working together for short 5days will always be kept in our minds. and just like mauricette says, eng soon will be eng soon! we will keep in contact ppl! xD

sini- my SHIT queen!
shaheer - "I AM PROUD TO BE BLACK!"
jolyn - "YOU VERY MEAN LEH!"
benben - "I AM SERIOUS OKAY?!"
dora - SNORING SYMPHONY!

I LOVE YOU GUYS! and i MISS you all! steph! u are with us together! xD
ENG SOON ROCKS!