Fill that little hole, will you?

i don't knw wht to say to you ):
seems like the distance btwn us is like, ever widening.

you say sorry fr not being able to be a friend to me.
but why, i can't seem to find the sincerity in those words.
i don't see the effort in trying to meet me.
i know, you have many friends, and only a few days in S'pore.
but if you really really treat me as someone impt,
you wld meet up with me, won't you?

we agreed to meet last december.
but you cancelled the apt last minute, saying you had something on.
but i saw you at orchard, with a bunch of pple.
wht wld you think/feel if you were me?

we didn't talk on msn fr ages.
i initiated convos, but they don't seem to last longer than 5 sentences.
i can't recall whn you initiated.

this time, you told me you were coming back to sch to visit us.
you told me to be prepared to meet you.
but i didn't see you on monday, you weren't ard.
and whn i asked you, you told me you left earlier.
and another sorry.

sometimes i wonder,
hve you forgotten me?
maybe not, but you hve a thousand more friends having the same status as me.
"a friend",
having some weight, but not so much as to pay extra attention to.
not so much as to try your best to keep the friendship.

i am tired,
i don't want to feel my heart lifted with the empty promises of meeting me,
but feel it drop again by you "accidentally" cancelling it.
i don't want to hear another sorry from you.

jst like wht tricia said,
if you really treasure this friendship,
busy is not a excuse.
friendship is precious and priceless,
once it's gone, it's gone forever.