You make me Mad.

You make me Mad.
You make me Mad.
You make me Mad.
You make me Mad.
You make me Mad.
You make me Mad.

everything about you makes me mad.
grahhh, it's not fair.
nothing is fair.
why are some ppl born cleverer than others?
why are some ppl born healthier than others?
why are some ppl born more perfect than others?
it's no fair.

you make me mad.
angry.
frustrated.
furious.

who are you to tell me what i should do?
I AM BUSY, DAMN IT. VERY BUSY.
oh i forgot, you are not inside ECON ACTION PLAN.
nor are you in some PHYSICS ELITE FORCES.
and you don't even hve any problems studying.
of course you freaking don't understand.

and comeon,
your whole family is HEALTHY.
i have a sick dad.
a terribly sick dad.
i can't hve everything MY WAY anymore.
so who are you to decide wht i shld do?

and thanks,
for changing it.
thanks alot.
i needed tht to add on to my list of
"things i hate about you."

and wht i hate most about you?
is the fact tt you dn't care.
you dn't see.
you dn't listen.
you dn't bother to understand.

so who are you to tell me wht i shld do?
and who are you tell me of whn i didn't hve the time to do my job?
WHO ARE YOU.
YOU MAKE ME EXTREMELY MADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

GREAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Why Do I Keep Counting - The Killers

There's a plane and I am flying
There's a mountain waiting for me
Oh these years have been so trying
I don't know if I can use them

Am I strong enough
To be the one?
Will I live to have some children?

Help me get down,
I can make it,
Help me get down
[x2]

If I only knew the answer
I wouldn't be bothering you, father

Help me get down,
I can make it,
Help me get down
[x2]

If I only knew the answer
And If all our days are numbered
Then why do I keep counting.

My sugar sweet is so attainable
This behaviour so unexplainable
The days just slip and slide
Like they always did
The trouble is my head
Won't let me forget

I took one last good look around
So many unusual sounds
I gotta get my feet on the ground

Help me get down,
I can make it (ohhhhh...)

Help me get down,
I can make it,
Help me get down.
[x2]

If I only knew the answer
I wouldn't be bothering you, father

Help me get down
I can make it,
help me get
[x2]

If I only knew the answer
And if all our days are numbered
Would you help me get down?

If I only knew the answer
If I change my way of living
And if I pave my streets with good times
Will the mountain keep on giving

And if all of our days are numbered
Then why do I keep counting.

gray grey grey's

today was watching grey's anatomy.
think i mentioned bfore,
grey's anatomy does teach ppl of 人生道理

today i watched i think 3 episodes?
there was one on competition, and here's a quote.

"Just because you've lost in a lions' competition, doesn't mean you can't roar."

how true,
most people dwell on the fact that they've lost,
and are incapable, and even give up.
but they forget the fact that they are actually good enough to be competing,
that they are actually a fighter.

and another quote to rmber.
"It's good to be afraid. It means that you have something to lose."
cool huh.
but i don't really understand.
LOL :D

how i love grey's
gray, grey, grey's : DDDD

What if?

what if i say i miss you?
wht wld you do?
wht reaction will i get?
"oh, me too. (:"
so brief, so distant.
so automatic.

sighs, whtever manzzzzzz.
hope you read this post,
and hope you knw it's you.

oh i forgot, do you even rmber my blog?

whtever manzzzzzzz.





(: - smile, and everything will be alright.
bullshit.

Romeo &Juliet - The Killers

A lovestruck Romeo, sings the streets a serenade
Laying everybody low with a love song that he made
Finds a streetlight, steps out of the shade
Says something like, "You and me, babe, how about it?"

Juliet says, "Hey, it's Romeo, you nearly gave me a heart attack."
He's underneath the window, she's singing "Hey la, my boyfriend's back.
You shouldn't come around here, singing up people like that.
Anyway, what you gonna do about it?"

Juliet, the dice was loaded from the start
And I bet, and you exploded in my heart
And I forget, I forget
The movie song.
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

Come up on different streets, they both were streets of shame
Both dirty, both mean, yes and the dream was just the same
And I dream your dream for you and now your dream is real
How can you look at me, as if I was just another one of your deals?

Well, you can fall for chains of silver, you can fall for chains of gold
You can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold
You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin, yeah
Now you just say, "Oh Romeo, yeah, you know I used to have a scene with him"

Juliet, when we made love, you used to cry
I said, "I love you like the stars above, I love you till I die"
And there's a place for us, you know the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

I can't do the talk, like the talk on the TV
And I can't do a love song, like the way it's meant to be
I can't do everything, but I'd do anything for you
I can't do anything except be in love with you

And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be
All I do is keep the beat, and the bad company
And all I do is kiss you, through the bars of Orion
Juliet, I'd do the stars with you any time

Juliet, when we made love, you used to cry
I said, "I love you like the stars above, I'll love you till I die"
There's a place for us, you know the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

A lovestruck Romeo, he sings the streets of serenade
Laying everybody low with a love song that he made
Finds a convenient streetlight, steps out of the shade
He says something like, "You and me, babe, how about it?"

Fill that little hole, will you?

i don't knw wht to say to you ):
seems like the distance btwn us is like, ever widening.

you say sorry fr not being able to be a friend to me.
but why, i can't seem to find the sincerity in those words.
i don't see the effort in trying to meet me.
i know, you have many friends, and only a few days in S'pore.
but if you really really treat me as someone impt,
you wld meet up with me, won't you?

we agreed to meet last december.
but you cancelled the apt last minute, saying you had something on.
but i saw you at orchard, with a bunch of pple.
wht wld you think/feel if you were me?

we didn't talk on msn fr ages.
i initiated convos, but they don't seem to last longer than 5 sentences.
i can't recall whn you initiated.

this time, you told me you were coming back to sch to visit us.
you told me to be prepared to meet you.
but i didn't see you on monday, you weren't ard.
and whn i asked you, you told me you left earlier.
and another sorry.

sometimes i wonder,
hve you forgotten me?
maybe not, but you hve a thousand more friends having the same status as me.
"a friend",
having some weight, but not so much as to pay extra attention to.
not so much as to try your best to keep the friendship.

i am tired,
i don't want to feel my heart lifted with the empty promises of meeting me,
but feel it drop again by you "accidentally" cancelling it.
i don't want to hear another sorry from you.

jst like wht tricia said,
if you really treasure this friendship,
busy is not a excuse.
friendship is precious and priceless,
once it's gone, it's gone forever.

Fix You - Coldplay

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what your worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I,

Tears stream, down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I,

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

Are you my person?

"i care for you."
"take care, smile! i'll be there for you."
"everything will be alright."

it's true,
the same words from different pple can produce different effects on someone.

perhaps i'm jst not the person you wish to hear those words from.
perhaps, you dn't miss the person,
but you miss wht the person did for you,
and will still do for you if everything was the same.

i miss my person too,
but it's so long ago.
and you are the person i wish to hear those words from.
but gone are the days.

Books Ahoy!

i am a bookworm!
i love books
i love books more than i love food.
more than i love jared padalecki : D

and here is the list of books i shall finish reading by this mnth!
1) Blood Eagle
2)Tuesdays with Morrie
3)For One More Day

and here is the list of books i shall get by this mnth! :D
1)The Five People You Meet in Heaven
2)The Curious Incidend of the Dog in the Night-time
3)A Spot of Bother
4)A Short History of Tractors in Ukrainian

oh man, Books Galore :D
i love reading <3
boooooooooks <33333333

but i hate studying ):

The Changeling

alright people.
i hve had ENOUGH.
and yes, my tolerance lvl is at its max.
shut up and piss off.
get off my back.

wht the hell is wrong with being short?
you think i want it?
you think i love it?
so wht if you are taller than me?
you are UGLIER than me.
bitch.

and i am tired.
I SWEAR
THE NXT PERSON WHO LAUGHS AT MY HEIGHT OR CALLS ME STUMPY.
I SWEAR I WILL VOODOO YOU WITH PINS AND NEEDLE AND BURN YOU ALIVE.

oh, and i may switch to lifejournal
and only my friends can read them.
be prepared to get invitations :D

Oh Santa-

HOLIDAYS ARE ENDING.
NOOOO, i want more holidays.
oh santa ):

anyways, i' ve deleted some posts :D
am glad i gt rid of them,
they are like veryveryvery disgustingly depressing.
hahaha :D

am in a great mood now :D
i've finished my foxy lady though ):
and sch's starting.
damnnnnn.

i hate sch ):
i want to go out. ):
i want to meet up with tt idiot pearlyn.
sighs, i hve no friends. ):
imma lonerrrrr.
and i'll shrivel up and die.

haha, whtever :D
alright, time to chiong GP.
damn, ):

My huckleberry friend,

Moon River, wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,
wherever you're going I'm going your way.

Two drifters off to see the world.
There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end--
waiting 'round the bend,
my huckleberry friend,
Moon River and me.



I heard this frm some chinese serial drama,
when someone takes the first step, you should also take your first step.
if not, you will never be in sync with that person.

i've taken my first step,
but maybe to you, it's not even one.

oh, whtever-

Happy Birthday!

hello hello! yesterday was my birthday! (birdday)

haha, but bfore i talk abt yesterday, i shall talk at 7th June 2008.

it was a lame day. HEH.

i shall skip to the night part. when i was talking to my BELOVED GAY PARTNER.

AZM EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. LOL!

(hope you read this and feel honoured)

haha, we were chatting as usual. and he was speaking AZMI.

fyi, if you hve whtever negative comments you want to make, replace it with AZMI.

e.g: PORN = AZMI.

haha, so he was being himself. and we were talking abt i dn't know wht.

and here is the funny part. we were talking about him becoming whiter and me becoming blacker.

问我 - in deep shit. says:
omg
问我 - in deep shit. says:
there's no mirror here...
问我 - in deep shit. says:
im like
问我 - in deep shit. says:
growin really thick moustache
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
LOL
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
EWWWWWW
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
CUT IT LA
问我 - in deep shit. says:
my sideburn are like
问我 - in deep shit. says:
so damn long!
问我 - in deep shit. says:
LOL
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
you are gna be like the EVAN ALMIGHTY
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
LOL
问我 - in deep shit. says:
LOL
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
except you are
问我 - in deep shit. says:
but im AZMI ALMITY
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
AZMI ALDIRTY
yiwei(: -德明女童军团第三十八届. says:
LOL
问我 - in deep shit. says:
LOL

so he is now known as AZMI ALDIRTY.

ahahha, and yes, nxt time i will share secrets with you la.

THNKS TO YOUR POOR MEMORY. LOL.

then finally, at time 11.58pm.

i recieved my first sms of HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

congratulations! it was KIMMMMMM.

hahaha, thnks kimm, lovely sms. :DDDDDDDD

then followed by the rest, my dearest peli, with his funny sms.

jocelyn 940, ruiyang, LOL AND LEONARD. HE LOST THE SMS-AT-12 COMPETITION.

and yes, Mr Aldirty. LOL!

then my dearest darlie called me!

thnks darling, you are the first one to sing happy birthday to me!

online, i rcved cakes! and yes, chengyi's trad cake:

kimm's scary ninja cake:

haha, thnks to everyone who wished me happy birthday.

though the no. of ppl was mch less than last yr's

but strangely i don't really care.

wht matters is who are the ppl who wished me.

hahaha, I LOVE YALL!

and i had splendid 8th June 2008.

went to orchard to meet kimm to get my cake.

HAHA, and she stole the Bakerzin menu! LOL!

and yes, i got lost in orchard. not surprising.

it was fun! i saw a, awesome red dress in paragon.

haha, and the price is even more awesome. lol

hahaha, fun day. fun night. caught PUSHING DAISIES : D

NICE TV SERIES, AM GNA CATCH IT EVERY SUNDAY 10.30PM!

haha, and to june.

THNKS FR TT NIGHT! fr sacrificing your intelligence to cheer me up.

haha, and yeah, tt liar can go to hell. HEH :D

darlie! LOVE YOU ALOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

yeah, i fell in love with your smile! : D

alicia : D take care in china. AND RMBER MY URL. LOL!

(:

Drops of Jupiter (:

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's a time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey.

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that Heaven is overrated
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's a room to grow, hey, hey

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance, five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . .
And me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that Heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there.

&Juliet (:

am back from camp!
a camp that i will remember forever.
it was splendid, though tiring.
haha, am still in the camp mood!

i will miss so many things there.
the stars,
the sky,
the river,
the mad singing,
the mad morale boosting,
the mad laughing,
the mad truths and dares,
the mad laughing at people,
the mad bus that breaks down every now and then,
the crazed rush for supermarkets and petrol kiosks,
the little attap house that i stood in during the minute of self reflection,
the sit-on-tops,
the little sponge-bob strap on the kayak,
the linking of "you and me" and "blower's daughter",
Jiajin's fear of grasshoppers,
the screams fr FENG YOU
the waterfall
the crazy phototakings.

it's jst a madmadmad camp,
with crazy people doing crazy things.
there are so many things i want to say,
but by typing it out is unable to relate everything.
i will remember it forever. (:

thnks to everyone who made this camp a success.
THNKS TO MY DARLIE, FR SHE HELPED ME MILLIONS OF TIMES!
trekking, contacts, bathing, taking food, gossipping, insect repllent, blahblah.
THNKS MY DARLING. (:

PAKA RIVER CAMP; EXPEDITION08™.

And on your list of things to do,
Is make me fall in love with you.
I Miss You.

I see Sam's Town

You know I see London, I see Sam's Town
Holds my hand and lets my hair down
Rolls that world right off my shoulder
I see London, I see Sam's Town now

well, everyone is mugging for CTs now.
no one has the time to care about one another.
i guess it applies to me too.
am gna retreat into my mugmode.
yeah, i see MugTown too. -.-

so many things happened recently.
stepping down of yr6s,
ppl getting out of roles tt they shld keep,
ppl unable to get wht they want,
CTs driving everyone nuts.
can't say it doesn't affect me.
Politik.

maybe someday i can really see Sam's Town.
get out of the MUGGING-NON-STOP cycle.
hve a little break,
catch up with friends.

lol, i feel old.
i am only 16!

oh ya, spent 115.17 on 3 dresses yesterday.
heh, jiayou fr mugging!

so what?

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

I HATE THIS.
i dn't understand a single shit,
i can't do a single crap.
the more i stare at it,
the more frustrated i become.

wht the fuck hve i been doing fr the past 4 yrs?
i hate hw.
i hate projs.
i hate studying.
gosh, i hate myself.

& if you are gng to say,
"it's your own fault tt you are suffering now."
kindly shut up.
because most probably i will kill you personally.
i am sick and tired of listening to you telling me tt it's my own fault.
studies/relationship/not listening to you/
whtever.
shut up.

stop and stare-

seems like everything is changing,
but i am still stuck at the same spot.
unsure and unaware.

i think i'm a fool.
a fool at almost everything.
its jst jan 2008,
and i feel so tired already.
studies, relationships, family, problems.
neverending.

maybe i jst wanna hide somewhre,
get away frm all the craziness.
chill and find back my momentum,
before striving out once more.

it's a wonder, this heart of mine has been beating fr almost 17yrs,
whn will it stop?

i think i'm moving but i go nowhere.

2008, will it be like 2007?

its 2008 already.
still kinda not used to saying it.
i miss 2oo7.
):

i wonder if 5C31 will be like 4C.
will it be as fun as 4c?
i miss 4c, esp. the girls.
all the hanging out, all the laughing
fighting, screaming,
dancing like no body's business.
can we do tt in 5c31?

i was reading ppls' blogs talking abt 2007.
it seems to me 2007 had been a wonderful yr fr most ppl.
me too.
but everything mst come to an end.
i miss you, 2007 ):

for wht it's worth,
it was worth all the while.